The past few years

I have been going to a denominational church. It is a first time for me. What I mean is that my adult church going experience has been in churches without a denominational heirarchy and political system. It has been very enlightening to me to see how much of the world's governing systems have influenced the church that is supposed to be founded on Jesus Christ. Sorry... I got sidetracked a little.
What I wanted to highlight was the fact that, while there, I received almost no personal input. I was merely a number in a pew. I was preached to but not encouraged equipped or strengthened. I feel as though I was actually weakened. That is not entirely the churches fault I realise that. I am responsible for my own actions.
What I did not appreciate about that experience, was that the Pastor watched me go backwards in my involvment and passion for God and did not talk to me about it. He had, prior to this moral erosion in my life, spoken to me about how he saw passion in me for the Lord. He would ask me to pray during the services. He asked me to lead the young adults group. I was still in decision about that when things changed. Something happened between my wife and the pastor and his wife. She felt like she had a word from the Lord about them and when she gave it to the they rejected it and us. That rejection whether perceived or real was that they no longer invited us to their home. They would not speak to us during the fellowship time before and after the services. I was not asked to pray in church anymore.
These may not seem like that big of an issue. They are not that significant as far as my own faith is concerned. What they indicated to me were the lack of personal contact and influence by the leaders of organised churches- or at least this one- in the lives of the attendees. This may suit many people who do not want to grow in the Lord or who do not want to become open or transparent about their walk with God. I want someone to help me. I want to change from the dead person that I am right now.
A little over three weeks ago i went to meet with the pastor of the church that I had attended when I was involved in the youth group. I told the pastor that I wanted to be accountable to someone. I wanted to grow. He told me that everyone needed a father. He said that God has been showing him that as Christians we need someone to input into our lives and someone with whom we can have an input. He said that my dissatisfaction with my situation was probably because I did not have that. He said that recently he had prayed that God would bring people back to his church who were to be involved in what God was starting to do.
I felt like that was what I wanted to do so for the past three weeks I have been going to a Tuesday night men's discipleship meeting. I feel it is quite basic but I really have been enjoying the interaction with other Christian men.